Monday, November 03, 2008

Always Keep a Diamond in Your Mind

It was not the weekend I expected. I awoke on Saturday morning with an insanely swollen gland in my throat that was painful to touch. I was tired and achy. Date night was canceled. I walked into the garage to pick up my airy scarf that had been blocking; some beasty had rolled on it and it was a crumpled mess, straight pins all over the floor (I can't believe nothing happened to the Dink in the process). I started to tear up. I threw the scarf. Kidlet came and patted my back. Hubby made a restorative dinner. We drank wine.

While I straightened up the kitchen after dinner, Kidlet and Hubby carved the pumpkin (yes, on November 1st). As I listened to Kidlet and Hubby talk, my heart began to soar. Mentally, I started to list all the things that 'speak to me', that make my heart sing: jazz from before the 1970s, good homemade bread, looking at Latvian patterns, Fellini's films, Moomins, dogs, the outdoors, good sportsmanship (strange, I know), and most of all family, family, family. The actual list I made is much longer than this but I thought I'd share a few snippets. Composing it really filled my cup (and not just with wine, but that's on the list too) and brought me back to the present, feeling ever-so-grateful. I needed to let go of my expectations and enjoy the ride where ever it took me. Always a good lesson to remember, eh? I highly recommend making a list. It will bring you up, I promise.

(title brought to you by the Tom Waits' song "Diamond in Your Mind")

4 comments:

pricklypearbloom said...

I'm sorry to hear your weekend was lower than you expected. But I'm glad it perked up. Mine was different than I expected. But these days, I guess I don't even know what to expect anymore.

Nessie Noodle said...

glad you found the good...
gratitude is where its at.

hope you are feeling better too!

Dominique said...

I'm a list person and I really do understand how it can make you feel better :-)

tifanie said...

oh i sooooo relate to just this type of moment. plenty of rest, if you can... uplifting literature. st. john's wort tea, lavendar tea, a pedicure or massage, if you can snag one. i'm so glad you were able to come back to the present. lucky you. sometimes it takes me a couple of days. be well. *